Why Am I Dating You Again?

So I've come to a realization in church today. If I don't expect anything thing from anyone, I'll be happier. Sadly this realization came from my boyfriend. Sometimes I wonder why were dating, I wonder if he realizes that he makes me feel like shiz all the time by conveniently being too busy for me, not putting his arm around me, always bringing up his ex girlfriend, and I always feel lonely. Hes my boyfriend and I'm feeling lonely??! Sadly I know that if I don't expect anything from him and be free, independent, and don't plan anything that would work around him, things will work out. Do I want this kind of life? I like guys that are all about me, but sadly those guys that are- I'm not into them. This is God's form of birth control. I'm over it, I'm going to try a new goal for the next week- don't give anyone expectations, especially Harris. This goes for work and friends. Im tried of getting ditched. I need a plan B at all times. Looking back, "plan B" relationships never worked out (actually all my past relationships never worked out). But those ones died with a extra sore heart because I worked so hard for it because the guy wasn't. Why don't I just break up with him now? Save myself the heartache and the time? (oh man- time is not on my side in utah and idaho) That is a good question, one that I find myself asking daily.